It was a dark and dreary night, which seemed to last a lifetime.
In fact, it was lasting a lifetime. The first 20 years of my life.
Darkness and chaos describe my early years. Oh, sure, there were glimpses of light and order, hope and joy, now and then. But dreariness described my life as a whole.
Kind of like when “in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth”. There wasn’t a sign in the heavens inviting change. No. Darkness, disorder, decadence, and dismay screamed constantly at Him and His plans, “We cannot, will not, be changed. We will forever remain like this!” That seemed to describe my life.
But, the entrance of His Word brought light; and the rest, they say, is history.
I had times, as a kid, really enjoyed my life and thought things were great. Like the times we’d have the neighborhood over and play ball in our backyard. Kids everywhere, running, laughing, without a care in the world. Or the time the ice cream truck would come down the street, beckoning us with its happy tune. All the neighborhood kids would stop what they were doing, run to find their parents, and literally beg them into buying a Buried Treasure, Drumstick, or some other sweet and cold treat. Ah, the good old days.
There were a few times of hope and joy as a teenager, but those years were primarily filled with strife and unrest. Not much hope for the future. No promise of life, that I could see anyway. Have you ever known someone who seemed to be okay and in great health, but was really losing a battle with cancer? That’s how my life was. Looked alright on the outside, but inside I was dying. If something happened I didn’t like, couldn’t control, or attacked my vulnerable heart, I would pack up and leave. I tried fighting back, but eventually concluded leaving was the best way to preserve what life I had.
A few people told me about this Man named Jesus. Fairytale stuff, as far as I was concerned. Besides, I didn’t need religion. Darkness and chaos were serving me just fine. It was something I was used to.
When I was 17, darkness seemed to ease up a bit. I met this girl who began to love me; darkness, chaos, hurt and all. I was so energized by her, hope for the future began to grow. Plans for a life together were forming. Buying an old “Bread Truck” decorated with colorful flowers, travelling the country, playing music, seeing the sights, living the dream, became known to us as “The Master Plan”.
We finally did get married and started living the Plan. No bread truck, just a cool 1964 Rambler Classic 770 named “Roger”. Life was but a dream, sh-boom, sh-boom.
Something happened during our second year of living our dream. I can’t really explain it. I only know we met this couple who had a “light” shining in their life. Love and life seemed to exude from them, attacking the darkness surrounding us; as though God was looking at our world, commanding His light to shine in our dark places.
Light be! Light was!
“In Him was life, and the life was the light of men.” “He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of Life.”
That was close to forty years ago. Never did get a bread truck. We have done some traveling, played some music, lived a few dreams, had a few nightmares. But we discarded the Master Plan. Traded it in for something full of love, life and hope. A future and a hope! We call it “The Master’s Plan.”
And the rest is, as they say, His Story.
If darkness and chaos has filled your life, there is a God in Heaven Who knows how to change your world.
4 responses to “The Master Plan… my short story”
I KNOW THE STORY VERY WELL i BELIVE ME AN bARB HAVE HAD VERY CLOSE TO THE SAME
We both married better than we deserved, didn’t we?!
Who knew? Jan, I recall you and Phyllis being very happy and carefree. If there were a problem, I did not know it. I do know that not only does your new plan fix the problem(s), it fixes them permanently because HE wants your problems. How often I try to handle these problems myself. How often I shut him out…still! P.S. coulda swore the car was named RUFUS! Guess I have to settle for Roger.
Yep, it’s been an interesting and exciting life walking with Jesus! We spent 5 months commuting to council bluffs last summer and fall. I was helping out 1st Assembly of God church with worship leading. Wish I’d have known you were around .